Cloudy and rainy.
Dishes.
Homework.
Making the bed.
Doing laundry.
This consists of my Saturday.
Best way to describe it as monotonous.
Classes aren't getting easier and apparently either is my attitude.
Keep on keeping on I suppose.
Peace, love and chocolate cake.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Overcoming Hurdles
Literally and figuratively.
Track is a love-hate relationship. I honestly hate track every Monday, in the middle of the 400m workout, after a 2-3 mile run and then a sequence of long sprints. Sweat pouring down my face, gasping for oxygen to fill my lungs and trying to stay moving before my whole body turns into one huge cramp. Sometimes I just hate having to work hard, but I love it. I love seeing the improvements as I become stronger and faster.
I have been hurdling since high school and 7 years later they still scare the crap out of me. I don't know what it is, but that 32" metal frame staring me down intimidates me more than most anything else. I am ready to conquer these beasts, I am ready to finally be able to 3-step instead of running a safe alternating 4-step to get less than optimal times. Not only am I learning how to overcome these hurdles, but i'm gaining confidence while doing it and the support from my teammates means the world to me.
In other news, I just failed my exercise science 351 exam. You know the one that was worth 20% of my grade? The worst part is thinking it couldn't of been that bad, but then getting the 6 1/2 page monster back with a F on the top followed by 47.4%. Ouch. That hurts. A lot. I mean, that's not even close to passing. Especially when my roommate next to me has a bright shiny A on hers. *sigh* Better luck next time? I don't like when people say that, but in all honestly I will need a copious amount of better luck if I have any chance of passing this class.
Now i'm off to get ready for fall retreat, where I can get away from almost everything and spend time with people who could care less about my hurdles and like me for me.
By the way, my boyfriend woke me up this morning by bringing me roses :)
I guess there is still hope for this world.
Track is a love-hate relationship. I honestly hate track every Monday, in the middle of the 400m workout, after a 2-3 mile run and then a sequence of long sprints. Sweat pouring down my face, gasping for oxygen to fill my lungs and trying to stay moving before my whole body turns into one huge cramp. Sometimes I just hate having to work hard, but I love it. I love seeing the improvements as I become stronger and faster.
I have been hurdling since high school and 7 years later they still scare the crap out of me. I don't know what it is, but that 32" metal frame staring me down intimidates me more than most anything else. I am ready to conquer these beasts, I am ready to finally be able to 3-step instead of running a safe alternating 4-step to get less than optimal times. Not only am I learning how to overcome these hurdles, but i'm gaining confidence while doing it and the support from my teammates means the world to me.
In other news, I just failed my exercise science 351 exam. You know the one that was worth 20% of my grade? The worst part is thinking it couldn't of been that bad, but then getting the 6 1/2 page monster back with a F on the top followed by 47.4%. Ouch. That hurts. A lot. I mean, that's not even close to passing. Especially when my roommate next to me has a bright shiny A on hers. *sigh* Better luck next time? I don't like when people say that, but in all honestly I will need a copious amount of better luck if I have any chance of passing this class.
Now i'm off to get ready for fall retreat, where I can get away from almost everything and spend time with people who could care less about my hurdles and like me for me.
By the way, my boyfriend woke me up this morning by bringing me roses :)
I guess there is still hope for this world.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
10/16/10
Remember way back when (okay, a little more than a month ago) I said the boy I had been crushing on just wanted to be friends? Well . . he had a change of heart and after hanging out in Seattle yesterday confessed he's willing to make it work.
"I miss you. I wasn't expecting to, but I do."
I had been dealing with the fact that I would be single for a while and was going to wait as long as I could, but as soon I made the acceptance of friendship, I was pleasantly greeted with a relationship opportunity. Yes, I have fears, yes I may have no idea what I'm getting myself into. However, for once in a long time I am truly happy and I truly believe this will work out better than anything I have had to deal with in my past. The future is not what I want to focus on, but the present. Living each day one step at a time and dealing with I have control over when stuff comes up. Staying positive and being selfless.
I have an exam tomorrow that is worth 20% of my grade and I know that after my 2 hour drive back to Ellensburg and after my soccer practice that leaves me a limited time to study. I guess whatever happens happens. I no longer feel like I have control over the results of my life.
So, here goes nothing. Here goes hoping for the best and praying my heart won't have to deal with another heartbreak or disappointment.
Ohhh life.
<3
"I miss you. I wasn't expecting to, but I do."
I had been dealing with the fact that I would be single for a while and was going to wait as long as I could, but as soon I made the acceptance of friendship, I was pleasantly greeted with a relationship opportunity. Yes, I have fears, yes I may have no idea what I'm getting myself into. However, for once in a long time I am truly happy and I truly believe this will work out better than anything I have had to deal with in my past. The future is not what I want to focus on, but the present. Living each day one step at a time and dealing with I have control over when stuff comes up. Staying positive and being selfless.
I have an exam tomorrow that is worth 20% of my grade and I know that after my 2 hour drive back to Ellensburg and after my soccer practice that leaves me a limited time to study. I guess whatever happens happens. I no longer feel like I have control over the results of my life.
So, here goes nothing. Here goes hoping for the best and praying my heart won't have to deal with another heartbreak or disappointment.
Ohhh life.
<3
Monday, October 11, 2010
Love Wins.
No one expects that call. The call that changes everything. Seemingly normal at first but then you hear the words.
Wednesday night at 10:30pm is when my phone rang. I picked it up assuming I would have a typical gossip-filled conversation with my friend Katie. She asked me if I had been on facebook recently, but I had not, I was at a friends house watching season 6 of The Office. Hesitantly, she proceeded to tell me, "Carly Henley is dead." Pure shock flowed through my entire body. "This can't be true" was the first thing that came to mind. Horrified, I continued to listen to Katie as she explained Carly's body was found next to a frat house, suspected suicide. There was still no way I could believe the words coming out of the shattered screen of my phone. Not Carly I kept thinking, she loved life way too much, if anyone had a reason to live, it was her. The thoughts scrambled in my mind suddenly caused me to break down, tears forming and head shaking. Still in disbelief.
I met Carly in middle school and played soccer with her. Our team went to Europe and I got to know her as well as the other "popular" girls, Carly was definitely the one I felt most comfortable talking to. Throughout high school I was always finding myself jealous of her mere perfection. Her beauty, kindness, generosity and overall demeanor was something I craved, something everyone wishes they could have. Her smile lit up anyone and everything, her music filled hearts and souls, her friendships grew exponentially. I wanted what she had, I wanted that sense of humbleness amidst greatness.
Death scares me. Death is so tragic and happens so suddenly. I grieve with those who have experienced loved ones that have died. I cried after that call until I physically couldn't cry anymore. Even through the tears, frustration, questions, horror, sadness and every other emotion, I have to realize that goodness always overcomes the evil in this world, Jesus made sure of that. Carly's death has reached out to more people imaginable and has touched every life that knew her. Her love for Jesus is inspiring enough for me to reflect on how i'm living my life and what I want to be remembered by. I love you Carly and I wish I could of spent more time getting to know the angel you were and are now in heaven.
All I can do now is pray.
I pray for strength, I pray for the Henley family, I pray for peace of mind and comfort.
Most of all, I pray for goodness to come out of all this and for everyone to come to terms with Carly's favorite phrase: Love Wins.
Because God=love and God never fails, so love never fails.
Wednesday night at 10:30pm is when my phone rang. I picked it up assuming I would have a typical gossip-filled conversation with my friend Katie. She asked me if I had been on facebook recently, but I had not, I was at a friends house watching season 6 of The Office. Hesitantly, she proceeded to tell me, "Carly Henley is dead." Pure shock flowed through my entire body. "This can't be true" was the first thing that came to mind. Horrified, I continued to listen to Katie as she explained Carly's body was found next to a frat house, suspected suicide. There was still no way I could believe the words coming out of the shattered screen of my phone. Not Carly I kept thinking, she loved life way too much, if anyone had a reason to live, it was her. The thoughts scrambled in my mind suddenly caused me to break down, tears forming and head shaking. Still in disbelief.
I met Carly in middle school and played soccer with her. Our team went to Europe and I got to know her as well as the other "popular" girls, Carly was definitely the one I felt most comfortable talking to. Throughout high school I was always finding myself jealous of her mere perfection. Her beauty, kindness, generosity and overall demeanor was something I craved, something everyone wishes they could have. Her smile lit up anyone and everything, her music filled hearts and souls, her friendships grew exponentially. I wanted what she had, I wanted that sense of humbleness amidst greatness.
Death scares me. Death is so tragic and happens so suddenly. I grieve with those who have experienced loved ones that have died. I cried after that call until I physically couldn't cry anymore. Even through the tears, frustration, questions, horror, sadness and every other emotion, I have to realize that goodness always overcomes the evil in this world, Jesus made sure of that. Carly's death has reached out to more people imaginable and has touched every life that knew her. Her love for Jesus is inspiring enough for me to reflect on how i'm living my life and what I want to be remembered by. I love you Carly and I wish I could of spent more time getting to know the angel you were and are now in heaven.
All I can do now is pray.
I pray for strength, I pray for the Henley family, I pray for peace of mind and comfort.
Most of all, I pray for goodness to come out of all this and for everyone to come to terms with Carly's favorite phrase: Love Wins.
Because God=love and God never fails, so love never fails.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Schedule
My agenda for today-
6:30-7:30AM: Swimming w/ roommate
8-9: Class
11-12: Class
1-2: Class (Ultimate!)
2-3: Class
3-5: Track Practice
5-6:30: Athlete BBQ
7-9: Open Lab
10-11: Indoor Soccer Game
12-??: IT Homework/ Studying for LabQuiz
Readyyyy . .Go!
6:30-7:30AM: Swimming w/ roommate
8-9: Class
11-12: Class
1-2: Class (Ultimate!)
2-3: Class
3-5: Track Practice
5-6:30: Athlete BBQ
7-9: Open Lab
10-11: Indoor Soccer Game
12-??: IT Homework/ Studying for LabQuiz
Readyyyy . .Go!
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